This is September now :)
The morning of September 1st. I can smile these days. A new month came. I have
to passed again the days. Thirty days to be soon in October again, and November
again and again the great Christmas in December again. ^_^ Life is too
beautiful to pass these days, no more pain and tears now. I can really enjoy my
life :D In a time i ever thought to back in December 2011. But now, i never
want that anymore. I want soon in December 2012, December 2013 and so on. Bury
all the past and welcoming a new sunshine everyday, free life, smiling to every
moon lights. Being someone better, being more like previous me. Again i back
into my previous life which is just me enjoying the life with no fears, no
broken heart, no cry, no pathetic, no gloomy and blue and just cheers and
happiness around.
Well i can really realize if maybe you feel that it is so fast for me to be free again after in the earlier August i posted about "BROKEN" in my blog. But to be honest the broken started in end of March, i actually could directly gone that time but i preferred to stay. Based of my stupidity, i stayed and let stay the broken hearts. But as long as i thought daily, the broken would never gone if i stay more and more and just join the game he made. So now, i left. And look, once I left from my gloomy days, I really can breathe the air. Living alive, looking forward for the days. Once "never think that he is the only guy", it will definitely help you to stand up from the ground. Don't forget, share your problems and feeling to best friends, they really can heal you and their advice can really strengthen you.
From now on, the memories of him i will really bury in the deepest of my heart
and soon the new memories will come and cover the previous. I believe in that.
You are a beautiful creature that God created in you, never let people make you
as a dumb clown. It was cloudy night here yesterday, and i smiled to even a
cloudy days. Turning the page from the previous to the new one. It is my start
to build everything up again and make a good writting in the new page, never
again look at the bad previous page which was more fully in gloomy way.
I
will let my friends write in my new page, let them fill this new page with
jokes from them. Young life, shouldn't be wasted for being gloomy all the time.
Time will never come back, don't spend it with all the sadness. The previous
page that i just closed already fully filled. Those now becoming my life
history. History is always wise, from the bad things happened, there we can
learn what to do in future days, i will learn from the history for not falling
in love anymore with a man who is very very welcome to every girls and at the
end just playing with their heart and screw up their life. I won't.
My
friends welcome me back ^_^ They are happy to see me strong like i am now. Even
one of them made a joke about us, and i just laughed like i don't care anymore.
Now i can convince it and say it clear, that I am now over him. That now
i control my life by my self, not him who pushed me always to a very sadness
feeling. I am free that i am over him, he can't control me in always sadness
and hurt feeling anymore. I am really loose my love for him. No more love
anymore, but also no more hate, what i feel to him purely just nothing now.
Feeling like i am with people out there, i don't love them but i also don't
hate them. He is no one now.
I
don't want to look back or even go back. What i ever given to him, all were
pure from my heart. I had no other goal, just made him happy and comfort. But
all i feel now, i have done my best for him the time we were still in contact,
and it couldn't help, and even it made me got worse, so i left. "When
you feel that you can't take it anymore, you can try to just let everything
gone, but stay strong with the pain, hold on the tears, try to never look at
back, and everything will really gone". Wish you a happy days and
God bless readers ^_^
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