I am happy and thanking God that He let me born in my family that i have now. I know, why He let me born there, because in my life He had planned the best thing for me, even the time i haven't created. He let me born in a family that know Him close. I also happy and proud to have Him in my life. Such a precious that i will never let go. He makes me the best thing in Him, no matter who i really am, no matter how bad i am. But He keep loving me and always strengthen me.
I know i am a sinful person who do not deserve to get a heaven and live with Him there. But, because He loves me that much. He sacrificed Himself on a cross, let people did bad thing and even i called it a very dishonorable thing to Him, who is actually a God. Everytime i watch "The Passion of Christ" i always realize, about how bad i am, what the good thing i ever do for Him, i am nothing in this world. As human that created by Him, i realize that i am nothing and i always need Him on my way.
A Christianity is not just a religion. But it is more than that. It is a picture of such a True Love that God has for us. In Bible written that "He came in this world to look for the lost sheep to rescue them".
It is not just we say "we believe in Jesus" but never pray and never love to read His words. Then, how can we believe without we listen and have communication with Him. All impossible. I already experienced it. I used to said "i believe in Him and all His words", but i rarely pray or even just read His words in Bible.
One day, God let me have a trouble in my life. And then what ? Did i just feel it calmly ? Did i feel all okay and never be afraid ? No. I felt so much afraid, i felt so worried about my life. Although that time i tried to convince myself that "hey you said you believe in Jesus, let everything happen and you just gonna be okay". But what i got ? No, i didn't feel alright at all when i was in that problem. I started to pray to Jesus, i cried, i asked Him to let me get through in that problem with Him beside me.
And then what, i felt better after i talked to Him, felt like someone had just took away my burden. I was still in that problem, but i felt inside was just a calm feeling, no more afraid, no more tears. All i let it passed, because i already believe and God looked like just talked to me to be just okay. I know that i have A Living Lord. My Lord, is not just a name. But He is here, He lives and always see every single things that i do in my life. Even i am alone like now in my room. But i believe His eyes are still on me. He is looking at me, and gives me so much love that even the closest person in my life, never gonna able to give me.
So read it, read all His words in Bible. Then you gonna be just okay. I feel it, sometimes i don't understand what Bible said to me when i read it, how it could be related to my life and what the words means. But then my Clergyman suggested me to just read, read even you don't know what Bible saying. Because the Holy Spirit will help you to understand every words there. And i always believe that "Everything i do in His name won't be just a waste".
"Kris, where will you go after you die ? Hell or Heaven ?" a friend of mine ever asked me this.
"There, to Heaven", i answered him.
"How could you answered that in so surely?", he asked me again.
"Of course i believe, you know what. I have no longer debt that can tied me in an eternal hell. Because my Father in heaven had paid fully for me since i haven't created in this world, but just only if you believe your life in Him then you are saved", i answered.
I wrote this all not try to made an arrogant thing to myself. Because i also realize that i am not a good person at all. If i have all in my life, then it is not because of me. But God made it for me. I hope you will live more in a way closer to Jesus. Try and you will find what actually a joy is. Joy that world gives is totally different with God gives. Joy that the world gives, last soon. But what about the Joy that God gives, it is eternal. Even if you are in such a big problem, you will always can feel the joy, and you won't get to know the reason why.
I know i am a sinful person who do not deserve to get a heaven and live with Him there. But, because He loves me that much. He sacrificed Himself on a cross, let people did bad thing and even i called it a very dishonorable thing to Him, who is actually a God. Everytime i watch "The Passion of Christ" i always realize, about how bad i am, what the good thing i ever do for Him, i am nothing in this world. As human that created by Him, i realize that i am nothing and i always need Him on my way.
A Christianity is not just a religion. But it is more than that. It is a picture of such a True Love that God has for us. In Bible written that "He came in this world to look for the lost sheep to rescue them".
It is not just we say "we believe in Jesus" but never pray and never love to read His words. Then, how can we believe without we listen and have communication with Him. All impossible. I already experienced it. I used to said "i believe in Him and all His words", but i rarely pray or even just read His words in Bible.One day, God let me have a trouble in my life. And then what ? Did i just feel it calmly ? Did i feel all okay and never be afraid ? No. I felt so much afraid, i felt so worried about my life. Although that time i tried to convince myself that "hey you said you believe in Jesus, let everything happen and you just gonna be okay". But what i got ? No, i didn't feel alright at all when i was in that problem. I started to pray to Jesus, i cried, i asked Him to let me get through in that problem with Him beside me.
And then what, i felt better after i talked to Him, felt like someone had just took away my burden. I was still in that problem, but i felt inside was just a calm feeling, no more afraid, no more tears. All i let it passed, because i already believe and God looked like just talked to me to be just okay. I know that i have A Living Lord. My Lord, is not just a name. But He is here, He lives and always see every single things that i do in my life. Even i am alone like now in my room. But i believe His eyes are still on me. He is looking at me, and gives me so much love that even the closest person in my life, never gonna able to give me.
So read it, read all His words in Bible. Then you gonna be just okay. I feel it, sometimes i don't understand what Bible said to me when i read it, how it could be related to my life and what the words means. But then my Clergyman suggested me to just read, read even you don't know what Bible saying. Because the Holy Spirit will help you to understand every words there. And i always believe that "Everything i do in His name won't be just a waste".
"Kris, where will you go after you die ? Hell or Heaven ?" a friend of mine ever asked me this."There, to Heaven", i answered him.
"How could you answered that in so surely?", he asked me again.
"Of course i believe, you know what. I have no longer debt that can tied me in an eternal hell. Because my Father in heaven had paid fully for me since i haven't created in this world, but just only if you believe your life in Him then you are saved", i answered.
I wrote this all not try to made an arrogant thing to myself. Because i also realize that i am not a good person at all. If i have all in my life, then it is not because of me. But God made it for me. I hope you will live more in a way closer to Jesus. Try and you will find what actually a joy is. Joy that world gives is totally different with God gives. Joy that the world gives, last soon. But what about the Joy that God gives, it is eternal. Even if you are in such a big problem, you will always can feel the joy, and you won't get to know the reason why.
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