I HANG MY LIFE IN JESUS

                   

          Today night, i logged in to my facebook account. My bestfriend who was away right now from me, suddenly she sent me message in facebook. I read it, she told me about "dream that she had last night". I read it carefully. In her dream she was hospitalized. But then she saw me, i came to her but i didn't talk at all. She asked me what was i doing there. And she told me that i answered "i was just hit by a truck". And in her dream i suddenly gone and disappeared. She called me but couldn't see me everywhere. Then she saw some spirits coming to her and asking her to come to them. She refused.

          Honestly after read her message i was so afraid about what i said in her dream. In Christian, a dead are a lucky thing, because we can see our greatest Father, Jesus. I approve that too. But i was so afraid, i suddenly cried. I don't know what that dream means. Then i played some Christian songs. And i kneeled on my bed site. I sang the songs, i greeted Him and i prayed. I told God all what i feel. About my feeling to that dream too.

          In my pray i said "Jesus i believe in You more than anything, and i know this was just a dream that my friend had. I am sure, You will always cover me and my friend from every bad thing. I believe that if i keep faith just on You then, You really gonna change my life. In your Hands i lay my life, in your Eyes i see the greatest Love that no one ever given to me. I know everything happens for a reason. I know living as a human in this world, was just like fume, once seen and soon gone away. So please Lord let me to make my family happy and pruod to me before you take me back to the eternity. Once i will back as dust, and my spirit will gone forever from this body, but let me first become someone good and such a good daughter, grandaugther, as a kids in Your eyes." But after prayed one thing that built my feeling, He hugs me and will always be right here with me. I want Him to change me. Change my life. Just to be better one like before.

          Then i talked to my mom through phone. And my mom calmed me down as well. Readers, have you ever had something like what i am feeling now ? Feeling afraid of a bad dreams ? To be honest, i really not ready to back now. I am not a good person. I used to be. But these months, i am really not. I am trying and trying but so hard to be just like before, just like who i was. I don't like with what these months i do, i really want to back like i used to be. This is really not because of the broken heart. But just, life is so hard these days, and i hate what myself do these days. Have you ever felt like what i am feeling now ?
          I am truly saying this because i really feel this. I mean, i am not lying. It is just what happening now to me. Well maybe you guys think it is to much to share here. But sharing is one i can do now. I can't just keep it all inside me. I feel good everytime i pray and share problems. See you soon again readers. God bless.

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